Pee in a cup.

It is 1:20 in the am and I should most definitely be sleeping. Instead, I am watching a muted television and pretending to be a blogger - something that I am most assuredly not. Clearly.

I am also lying here, as I do almost every night, thinking about babies. Yes, babies. I desperately want a little fuzzy haired, tiny person. My poor husband, Steve, has to listen to this on a regular basis.

I am more than a little sure that it will be a difficult process for me to conceive and have already started taking measures to assist in the process. Which leads us to the title of tonight's rant; pee in a cup. I track my Basal  Body Temperature (BBT) daily and have recently started using an Ovulation Prediction Kit (OPK) which requires me to pee in a cup and dip the stick in to check for ovulation. Basically, same concept as a pregnancy test - just an ovulation test. Apparently, I did not ovulate this past cycle (something that I already had an idea about and is now the reality) and I do not think that I have ovulated in the past few cycles either.

Steve has no idea about the OPK's, but he does know about my fears of difficulty. I think he thinks that my fear isn't warranted or that it will be an easy thing for us to do. I have been paying attention to my body for a long time and I do not think there will be anything easy about conceiving for us. Call me crazy, but that's just my particular thought process.

We haven't even officially started trying yet, (he's deployed, so it makes it a little difficult) so there is no need for alarm as of yet. I need to just calm down and not worry until there is a need to worry. Something like that anyway.

Tip of the night: Floss daily to prevent heart disease. :-)