Days 3 & 4

Just because I didn't post yesterday, doesn't mean that I failed. Well...maybe I did fail a little. The plan was to go to a hot yoga class at 4:45 or a "normal" class at 5. I did not succeed in this plan, as I had a friend stay the night. I did, however, do a quick 20 minutes flow from an iTunes download. I know that 20 minutes is a far cry from an hour, but I did make an attempt.

Today was mucho better though! I had class until 5pm, followed by running 4 miles at the gym. Yah! I am in love with my new shoes and they make me feel fantastical! I did a 40 minutes yoga video here at home, as there were no classes for me to take.

So, neither days did I do a full hour. I DID accomplish yoga though. The important thing for ME is that I actually do it every day. I would like to be able to do a full hour, but something is better than nothing.

It's already 10:30pm and I am definitely ti-red! Fare thee well, beautiful people!

Dia Dos (Or Day Two)

Beautiful world wide web!

I have successfully completed day two of my 30 day yoga challenge! Yah! Only 28 more days to go.

I ran one mile today. Yes, one measly little mile. I purchased new shoes (barefoot runners) and made the mistake of running 2.5 miles yesterday and tearing up my heel in the process. So, I decided to take it easy today. I really need to get back on the running train and get back to how good I was in a past life...but let's take one step at a time, people!

After my short, yet sweet run, I did an hour of yoga with a class. Let me just say that I was NOT centered at all today. My balance was complete and total crap. Warrior III was a no-go fo sho! I've noticed that lately I've been off balance in general though. I guess this is nothing unusual as I am super clumsy and completely off center. Hopefully my crazy equilibrium will even itself out through daily practice and meditation (something else I need to work on: meditation).

::SIGH:: It's definitely time for sleep. The most fantastic man in the world (my husband) will be calling me soon to say good morning/good night - he's deployed - and then I can close my eyes.

Words of wisdom - just be still. For five, 10, 15 minutes. Just sit and learn to quiet your mind and listen to the universe.

Day 1 - Yoga Challenge

Was I successful today? Why, yes. Yes, I was!

the DEED:     30 minutes in the AM
                   2.5 mile run
                   30 minutes of yoga before bed to wind down

We shall see how day dos goes. How many days does it take to do something to form a habit?

I have to write a stupid paper for school and I'm actually quite tired. It's only 6:30pm, but I think I'm going to do this paper and call it a night around 9. Why do I feel like I'm talking to the walls? Probably because I am.

30 Day Yoga Challenge

Yes, I have decided to challenge myself to 30 days of yoga.

The thing is, I've been doing yoga for about a year and a half now and it's something that I've been interested in for quite a while, but I've never taken it as seriously as I would like to. I'm hoping that by challenging myself to 30 straight days of yoga, that it will help me become more serious in my practice and calm my forever racing mind. The goal is not to lose weight, (although it would be great if I lost those last pesky 6lbs) but to achieve mental clarity and a stronger, better practice.

I know that the odds of anyone even reading this are slim as I don't advertise and that the only person who can hold me accountable for a daily practice is myself, but I'm hoping that blogging will ensure I actually do it every day. I can't blog and say that I did something, when I didn't. Deceiving yourself only hurts YOURself.

The GOAL: Daily yoga - striving for at least an hour
The PLAN: Monday - YogaForYou
                    Tuesday - On base (it's freeeeee!!!)
                    Wednesday - On base OR hot yoga @ YogaForYou
                    Thursday - Yoga video at home
                    Friday - Hot Yoga
                    Saturday - YogaForYou or video at home
                    Sunday - Video at home

If I am unable to attend the actual classes - life happens! - then I WILL do a video at home. I personally like classes versus videos as I like being corrected on my poses, but it is what it is.

Starting....today...annnnnnnd GO!

Pee in a cup.

It is 1:20 in the am and I should most definitely be sleeping. Instead, I am watching a muted television and pretending to be a blogger - something that I am most assuredly not. Clearly.

I am also lying here, as I do almost every night, thinking about babies. Yes, babies. I desperately want a little fuzzy haired, tiny person. My poor husband, Steve, has to listen to this on a regular basis.

I am more than a little sure that it will be a difficult process for me to conceive and have already started taking measures to assist in the process. Which leads us to the title of tonight's rant; pee in a cup. I track my Basal  Body Temperature (BBT) daily and have recently started using an Ovulation Prediction Kit (OPK) which requires me to pee in a cup and dip the stick in to check for ovulation. Basically, same concept as a pregnancy test - just an ovulation test. Apparently, I did not ovulate this past cycle (something that I already had an idea about and is now the reality) and I do not think that I have ovulated in the past few cycles either.

Steve has no idea about the OPK's, but he does know about my fears of difficulty. I think he thinks that my fear isn't warranted or that it will be an easy thing for us to do. I have been paying attention to my body for a long time and I do not think there will be anything easy about conceiving for us. Call me crazy, but that's just my particular thought process.

We haven't even officially started trying yet, (he's deployed, so it makes it a little difficult) so there is no need for alarm as of yet. I need to just calm down and not worry until there is a need to worry. Something like that anyway.

Tip of the night: Floss daily to prevent heart disease. :-)

Psycho Girls...(beating a dead horse)

Welcome to the never ending cycle of useless, self abuse.

Ok, girls. I'm no love expert, (married, divorced, engaged, broken up, trying it again) but I'm no dumb ass when it comes to men either. I know we've all heard what I'm about to say time and time again, yet somehow we fall right back into the psycho girl trap. If he doesn't call, it's because he doesn't want to. If he doesn't take you out, it's not because he doesn't have time/money - it's because he doesn't want to. Or he could be ashamed...which is: HE DOESN'T WANT TO.

It's not that difficult to understand. Just think like a man for a moment. It's much easier for us to think like men than for men to think like women.

Example: Boy meets girl, they go on a date. Date goes well enough, the girl thinks everything is REASONABLY ok. (BTW, if things are "ok" or "reasonable" they probably are "shitty" in the guys head) Yet, the boy never calls for a 2nd date. Ask yourself a few questions when this happens. Did you take him home or go home with him that evening? If the answer is yes, then more than likely you're not getting a call back. Men are hunters and chasers, you probably had too much wine or thought that the date would end better if you just went home with him. At least give it until the 2nd day. I like sex just as much as the next person (probably more, I may have a problem) but there's nothing wrong with going home, jilling off, and screwing him the 2nd date. Second thing to ask yourself, "Was it really a mind blowing date?" If you are even remotely shaky in this response, then you're not getting a call back. Men really do know within the first five minutes of hanging out with you if they're interested or not. Quit overanalyzing everything and start taking things at face value. If the date sucked, it sucked. Don't defend the suckage. Accept and move on.

AND FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING HOLY, DO NOT CALL HIM. Do not call and hang up. Do not dail the numbers. Do not even pick up the phone with the intent to call him. Do not throw his number away, secretly having it memorized so that you can accidentally call later. Do not FB stalk him. JUST LEAVE IT ALONE. And maybe in the slim chance that he was semi interested, he will respect your ability to leave well enough alone and call you. Once again, men are hunters. If you leave them alone, they will come after you. If not, screw him.

If you are sleeping with a man that refuses to be in a relationship with you, you're an idiot. A complete and total idiot. It's not that he doesn't want to be in a relationship in general, it's he's waiting for something/someone better to come along. Quit being stupid and just enjoy sleeping with him, but do not bring up the relationshit subject constantly. Or force him into something he doesn't want to be in - he will cheat. Either continue to sleep with him happily or quit and move on to someone who will be in a relationship with you. And do not do the rookie mistake of making him breakfast, getting him breakfast, cleaning his house, doing his laundry. HIT IT AND QUIT IT. And who knows, your lax attitude about things may cause him to change his mind. Men get all freaked out when girls don't fall all over them and when they don't become psychos. The important thing is to just have fun. Think like a man!!!

LESSON OF THE DAY:
1. Please do not have sex on the first date. It's going to get you no where
2. If he doesn't call, who cares. Leave it alone. Find another one. Don't be pathetic, it's really ugly.
3. Just quit being psycho. Easier said than done, I know. But seriously. Everytime you are about to do something that you know is kind of psychotic, take a step back, breathe, and reevalute. If you still want to do it, then screw it. We all deserve to be a crazy, screaming, violent bitch sometimes.

I'm only hungry all the time!

So, I've recently embarked on this grand idea of cutting calories to lose weight. Completely crazypants since I adore food almost as much as myself. I've been doing this going on week number two and it's actually working. I'm not going to post my actual weight, (that's just not nice! For you, not for me...haha! J/K) but this morning when I weighed myself I was 3lbs lighter. I know this is the give and take 5lb thing, but it's still nice to see some sort of results. I haven't weighed this particular weight in months. All because I stopped eating like an asshole and just watched what I ate. I run everyday (except for the weekends, I'm not a psycho...well, yes I am...but not in this instance) and I just pay attention to what I put in my mouth. Not to mention I haven't eaten fast food since last Friday and even then it was only a McWrap from McHell and I didn't even eat it. For some reason it tasted like cleaning product. Weird. The point is, food really is the most important part of losing weight and keeping it off. Over the summer I was working out like a maniac and eating pretty decently and I was in my prime condition, my abs were even starting to show. Then fall came and I lost my mind, followed by winter when the glutonous pig in me reared it's ugly head. Now, coming back into another spring/summer something has to be done! So, I'm going to stick to this "not eating like an asshole" thing as I like to call it and hopefully at some point I'll quit saying "I'm hungry" all the time - my boyfriend is really tired of hearing it. Sorry, babe!

Also, not being able to afford to buy groceries really helps with losing weight. I actually had dry cereal for b-fast this morning...why? WHY ELSE WOULD I EAT DRY CEREAL?! No milk!

LESSON OF THE DAY: Stop eating. J/K. Eat what you want, just don't lose all self control and eat it all. You want ice cream? Have ONE scoop, not the whole tub. And the strawberries in your strawberry shortcake ice cream are not considered a serving of fruit - regardless of what the box says. Get some real fruit and veggies in your life. Bananas and steamed broccoli/asparagus are my favs!